Thursday, November 17, 2011
I know what potential I have to become anything I wanted in life but the stars just never seem to line up just right. I really want to become a hair stylist but the means just aren't there for me to follow my passion. Having a toddler, a full time job and a husband that is beyond obsessed with his work- he is trying to start a business so I have to him credit for his ambition plus he is a creative genius -but that leaves very little time for just me to do what I want with my career. It's also heartbreaking for me to think about being away from Wiley so much to attend school. I begin to feel selfish when I think about not being the one that takes him to day care, picking him up, making his dinner and giving him his baths. How could I even think of passing up those nights with him when he says "Hold my ham (hand), come to my ruuuuum, play blocks"? These are the best times of my life right now with him. He will never ever be this age again and need me the way he does when he falls down or just wakes up from his naps and calls out for me. Or is that just an excuse because I'm not willing to put myself out there and do all the hard work it will take to basically start completely over and at the bottom of the industry. I think it is a combination of both although being a mother is ingrained in me...I have too much love to give to my child to let anything come before him.
The new name also sprouts from seeing women in this world that I have discovered a new respect for and the longing to follow in their footsteps. I wish that I was more independant and sure of myself like the women I see today. I am always in a hurry to get to the next stage of my life and because of that I really rushed my adolesence. I also feel like I have let so many other people impact and influence who I am today that along the way I kinda got lost. I never focused on myself and I let my life define me instead of me defining my life. So when I see women that are happy with who they are no matter what anyone else thinks I get inspired. There are some women that are famous that I look up to, Zooey Deschanel for example. I absolutely LOVE her and her personality. I almost can't stand how awesome she is because she's just that awesome. She is weird, quirky, beautiful and hilarious. There are some women I know personally that also inspire me just because they are who they are and the people in their lives love them for it. I read your blogs and see your posts on Facebook. I watch the way you carry yourself and the way you speak. I love your strengths and also your weaknesses. Some things I see in myself and others I carry with me as building blocks.
So I guess bascially I just think of myself as a Diamond in the Rough because I know who I am in my heart and soul. I know that I am a goofy, weird, overly loving, imaginative, free spirited dreamer that just needs to be polished up a little bit so I can shine!
I hope to keep this blog up this time around and hopefully the next time it will be a little more light hearted. Happy Thursday!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
* Smiles all the time at everyone mainly b/c everyone smiles at him b/c he's so CUTE
Monday, April 26, 2010
- Sleeping about 9 hours or so at night and in his crib
- Takes 2 naps during the day
- Rolls over belly to back and back to belly
- Still wearing size 3 diaper and 6-9 month clothes
- Could possibly be teething- sometimes I call him Hooch b/c of the drool
- Eats 3 meals a day with a couple bottles in between
- Loves to smile and "talk"
- Uses hands like a pro- can put paci in/out by himself...thank goodness
- Likes to be bounced
- Found his toes and likes to play with them
- And best of all he absolutely LOVES his momma...lucky me!
During my pregnancy I recieved a lovely Umbilical Hernia and I finally got it repaired! Summer's coming and I might actually get in a bathing suit so I had to make sure I didn't scare anyone with my pooked out belly button!! I guess carrying around a 9lb baby there is bound to be some consequences but all better now!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sunday will be Wiley's first Easter and I'm so excited! I'm still thinking of how we're going to spend the day but I know we will have fun whatever we decide to do. This is going to be such a great year with our little boy...I love experiencing all of his "firsts" and there are so many to come!